Lessons from Controversies

   How could difficult it to say sorry than i love you. Over a years later, I have had a blessing of a "front row seat" of our family's journey as we strive for our survival. I became more close to my family I've been living since and a precious relationship that we had remains a happy and sacred memory of mine. However, the ties of the relationship that bind transcended the fear and path turns falling out brought. But the true enough that father in heaven still works in mysterious ways. That, our famity thanks matter most.

   I am in awe of much love and respect that we share and show our father, a powerful and headstrong man of the famiyl. Over the lunch the othor days, I could not help but feel the pressure inside as he turns in improper pathway. My heart was deeply moved in sorrow as he shows his devotion to us in the other ways he has other family to spring forth out his great love and need his presence.

  When the pressure or heat of thr problems rises on the strike upon us, everyone is affected. Especially mother who really felt the pain most, become "silent stare" and her tears roll down her face because she's too weak on the situition happens .. which became more difficult. Yet, what encouraging most is how our family manages to find joy and humor even in the worst part of the circumstances. By simply, held her hand and said i said nothing will happen. We will always be here for you and father no mnatter what. And gave her the most comforting hug I could ever remember. I can't think anything but love, unity and oneness of our family.

   The actins between things are much essential in order for our family to function well during the major illnes or the saddest time for us. Yet, the more we tried to move on nform the issue is the is the worsen we heared words from our neighbor and some friends. But still every one of us helps coordinate the roles that been given just to feel non-difference living from others.

   Decision was the focal point of conflict of us, especially when it comes in deciding whether if we still give the full assurance that we consider him as our father , because he has also other to provide the neccisities. And what really hurt is that he has a sibling with the girl and the are the very first family he lived wiht not us.

   The desire of God created, the wickedness of thies man has come up before him. He turned back to us wholeheartedly, despite of various temptation around him. He never failed to chose us his family. And despite of those trials, we feel blessed thatwe been given the chance to show our love to him. And found myself a great reason to live wholly for I/we blessed to have him again.

   The succceding failue of our family became the most challenging pathway we've taken in our intire life. And it made me realized that in this world everything around us cannot be contol though its in your hand already, the only thing we can't control is on how to respond to life's challenges. And it teaches me that ther are some things that we dont have to get fear on how to do because they just come to us naturally whether it could bring us dispair or grace/triumph or failure. Also it reminds me that we dont need to question what life brings, only thing is thing is going through the rough crossroads. Because giving up is not an option. Instead look forward and soar high, continue to aspire and do the best for yourself and others. Most especialy faith God and play the role of "spiritual fugitive" of us human brings correctly.